Angel Prayer

Angels and guides be with me each day,
Help me to find my way,
Release any toxins, grief, or stress,
Help me to be my best.

Positive thoughts and affirmations,
No negative vibrations,
Release the sorrow that I feel,
I want my soul to heal.

To live within a state of grace,
Able to handle what I must face,
With divine guidance and intuition,
Bring forward to fruition.

My life purpose and destination,
Not this sense of desolation,
With the passing of my son,
I don’t know how this is done.

Angel wings enfold me now,
With heavenly peace and faith endow,
So that I may find some comfort in,
Living my life once again.

Miracles

Miracles do happen, I can see,
Because you are now communicating with me,
This connection I’ve yearned for deep in my soul,
Has been my most fervent goal.

Knowing we can connect from different spheres,
Is profoundly comforting when you’re not here,
I could not bear the loss of the closeness we knew,
What a gift to have you come through.

How healing to know that all is one,
On this journey I’ve begun,
I am working on what I can learn,
As my life takes this new turn.

What a blessing that you stay near,
Helping to make my path more clear,
Without this reassurance from the Divine,
It would be easy to give up over time.

I pray my suffering and sorrow will transform,
Into peace and joy as hope is reborn,
Love is the message and the call,
For it is love that sustains us all.

Thank you for being a messenger from Spirit,
With God’s grace I am able to hear it,
This validation that love never ends,
Helps give me the faith that my heart will mend.

Beginning to Emerge

When the anguish of loss begins to soften,
When the pain is not as often,
You slowly begin to emerge,
From the darkness in which submerged.

Like a baby taking his first step,
Moving beyond the tears you’ve wept,
You tentatively venture forward once more,
Opening a new and different door.

Fragile wings of hope and healing,
That maybe life can still be appealing,
Start to flutter in your heart,
Wondering if you can start.

To find meaning once again,
Believing that a soul can mend,
I pray that this is true,
Because every day, I miss you.

Angelversary

The twenty-second of September,
Is a day I don’t wish to remember,
But I can now never forget,
The date of my child’s death.

Whenever September is mentioned,
My thoughts go straight to Heaven,
With trembling lips and tear-filled eyes,
My heart aches for my son who died.

Children’s anniversaries should be of marriage,
Occasions of joy and memories to cherish,
It’s unimaginable now to me,
To only have our son’s angelversary.

 It is with the power of the love we knew,
We somehow manage to make it through,
But the anguish within for a child who has passed,
Stays with parents until we breathe our last.
 

Without Any Warning

As a dedicated mother and wife,
I was very happy with my life,
Busy with my husband, daughter, and son,
I looked forward to things to come.

My entire world changed one morning,
Without any warning,
As I was sleeping in my bed,
I learned my precious son was dead.

How could I imagine to see,
A child of mine die before me?
It goes against the natural order of life,
Leaving us in trauma and strife.

There were times I thought of dying,
Every day I’m still crying,
I can’t believe my son is gone,
It’s so hard to keep moving on.

Our family of four,
Is no more,
How empty it now feels to me,
To be a family of three.

Sometimes I feel like screaming,
As I search for purpose and meaning,
With the hope that his death will lead,
To something greater to believe.

His life was a gift for whatever the time,
I was blessed to call him mine,
He is gone, and yet he is here,
His presence is felt, warm and dear.

Bodies die but love never ends,
Love is the power that transcends,
He is with me every day,
Only in a different way.

A Deafening Silence

How empty this house now seems,
Without you as part of its dreams,
The silence is deafening,
Where is the lessening,
Of a grief so deep, it seeps,
Into the very walls,
And yet recalls,
The echoes of the happiness,
When you were still with us,
So on higher notes, this love transcends,
The pain when it again descends,
And gently lifts our souls once more,
With memories of our love and gratefulness for,
Every moment that we knew,
In the blessing that was you.

A Message From My Son

In the arms of the angels I was flown,
Back to my heavenly home,
It came as a surprise to me,
But this is how it’s supposed to be.

I am happy, do not weep,
Love is forever ours to keep,
Now I work from this side,
As one of your spirit guides.

So alone I know you feel,
But I am present to help you heal,
I send you love and many signs,
As you struggle through this dark time.

I know your heart is broken,
But with divine love it will open,
And from what feels like tragedy,
You’ll be able to more clearly see.

The plans God has in store for you,
A purpose that will come shining through,
Keep the faith, don’t give in,
A new life will begin.

I want you to know,
That I love you so,
And I watch with pride,
As you find your stride.

Although my earthly life is done,
I am so grateful to be your son,
And in Heaven I await,
The time you’ll walk through God’s gate.

In the meantime do not fear,
Know that I am always near,
Feel the heavenly support from above,
For the mother that I so dearly love.


Thank you, Graham, for the miracle of this poem.

Step by Step

Love's redeeming grace,
Take away this heartache,
Let me with love and joy recall,
The happy times for us all.

I want to celebrate the love we knew,
For every moment we had with you,
To work through this terrible grief,
With a life now that feels incomplete.

Quiet my cries,
Dry my eyes,
I am so thankful for the time,
I was able to call you mine.

I didn't want this broken heart,
Or to live in a world apart,
This isn’t the life I  planned,
It’s so hard to understand.

I know you want my happiness,
I am doing my best,
As step by step and day by day,
I struggle to find my way.

My Taj Mahal

If it were possible I would build you a Taj Mahal,
A magnificent monument for one and all,
A structure of beauty and inspiration,
To celebrate love for all generations.

My love for you finds expression in poems,
Writing them helps me not feel so alone,
Giving words to the love we share,
Keeps me from giving into despair.

A book of my poetry has come to be,
Words flowing for others to see,
My Taj Mahal on a smaller scale,
A testimony that love never fails.

A gift in celebration of love and life,
Despite loss, anguish, and strife,
You are gone but your light still shines,
Brilliantly glowing for all time. 

     I didn't know eighteen months ago when I wrote my first poem where it would lead.  I have now written over two hundred poems.  Given the volume of poems and the hope that they might be of benefit to others, they are in the process of being published.  The book should be out sometime in November.  It is entitled, A Mother's Tears (Poems of Heartbreak, Loss, and Discovery).  I continue to be amazed and grateful with this unfoldment of poetry. 

Catapulted Into Grief

My entire world came crashing down,
In seconds, without a sound,
The morning we received a call,
That you had died in a fall.

I was stunned, shocked, in disbelief,
Catapulted into grief;
We had just been on the phone,
Making plans for you to come home.

 I felt as if I'd been attacked,
Like a knife was in my back,
I could feel my heart literally breaking,
As I sat, torn and aching.

So many dreams were destroyed,
When you died, my precious boy,
A future without you to share,
Is more than I think I can bear.

Our family is forever changed,
Everything is rearranged,
How do I go on without you,
And all the love that we knew?