Sunday, September 14, 2014

A Family Heritage Sign

The men in my husband's family have a tradition of carrying a coin in their pocket. I would like to share this meaningful experience from last night and why it's such a significant sign for us.

My husband's maternal grandfather always carried a silver dollar in his pants pocket. He passed a few months before my husband was born. The 1922 "Peace" dollar in the picture with this post is the last one he carried. When my husband graduated from high school his maternal grandmother gave him a 1964 silver Kennedy half dollar in a key chain holder as a gift. Ever since then my husband has always carried a 1964 Kennedy half dollar in his pocket. When this coin was lost he replaced it from the coin collection he inherited from his dad with another 1964 silver Kennedy half dollar. My father-in-law always carried a silver dollar in his pants pocket, the 1885 "Morgan" dollar in the picture. After my husband's father died my husband took our son to a coin shop in the town where my father-in-law lived and bought him a commemorative "Standing Liberty" silver dollar coin, the 1993 coin shown in the picture, which was based on the old "Standing Liberty" half dollar. Later, my husband found the 1942 "Standing Liberty" half dollar in the picture in his dad's coin collection and gave it to Graham so he would have a coin he could carry in his pocket as a substitute for the collectible dollar coin. Graham always carried it in his pants pocket. A family tradition honored. When Graham passed it was in his jeans pocket. I keep it in a special box that was his.

Last night my husband and I were with my parents, three of my brothers, and my daughter and her family for a special family get together and celebration. At some point my dad went out and picked up his mail. When he was opening up the mail there was a solicitation that included a half dollar! I knew that was Graham letting us know that he was with his family too. I was amazed at the personal significance of this. It brings tears just writing about it. Notice the little miracles and gifts we are given. Love is the greatest gift of all. It transcends space and time. I am so very grateful.

Monday, September 1, 2014

Time Moves Differently

I have been wanting to have a lovely antique watch image to post with a message about time. The concept of time takes on a whole other perspective when you have a devastating loss. I had just mentioned this to my husband the other day. Yesterday when I was at a Scottish games event with my family I found this watch pendant at the booth of a family friend of ours; this was the only watch she had. I was so surprised to see the angel wings on it! It is perfect for what I had in mind. My husband took this photo of the watch and we included a line from my poem, "If Only," with it. I believe our son, Graham, led me to find this.

Here is the full poem:

If Only

If only dreams could come true,
I would still be with you,
We would never count the days,
Because you would not have passed away.

Each morning when I rise,
There would be no thought that you died,
Every day I would awake with joy,
Happy with life and my wonderful boy.

Sometimes dreams come to an end,
I’ll not see my son in this life again,
He’s the last thought when I go to bed at night,
And my first thought with the morning light.

If only you were not really dead,
And would be coming home instead,
I’d like to pretend you’ve just been away for awhile,
Separated by nothing more than miles.

Time moves differently now that you are gone,
It’s so hard to keep moving on,
You are remembered and loved more than I can say,
And I miss you every single day.

Copyright © C.A. Stevenson 2010

Saturday, August 30, 2014

Memories of You Memorial Candle

I ordered this beautiful memorial candle from Memories of You; she is also on Facebook at  It arrived yesterday.  I love it!  The tears were running down my face.  It is so special.  There are numerous background scenes available.  Here is the description from the web site:

Creating Memories of Your Loved Ones
Your grief journey stirs heartfelt memories...

Let me create a photo candle keepsake of your loved one.
I know the pain of grief and the importance of holding on to memories. I created Memories Of You Candles after losing my son.

 " If a Memories Of You Candle can bring some comfort to you then I have accomplished my intentions".

Each candle is hand-poured
with 17 ounces of unscented
soy wax with a glass lid.
The scene you select is
wrapped around the jar with
your loved ones photo and

Friday, August 29, 2014

Memorial Bench

We just received this special memorial garden bench that we ordered. It's going to go in an area we are creating under one of the apple trees that Graham grew and planted in our backyard. What a gift to have Graham's beautiful apple trees. It should be completed by Graham's Angelversary next month. Another lovely healing oasis filled with Graham's continuing presence and love. This is the web site we ordered the bench from if any one else is interested in having a memorial garden bench.

Wednesday, August 27, 2014

Angel Number 123

Last week during the night I was awakened from my sleep with what I thought was my doorbell. I sat up in bed and then realized that the doorbell was not an actual one, I had heard it in my mind. I instinctively looked at my bedside clock. The time was 1:23. I was certain this was a message. When I got up later I looked up the meaning of angel number 123. It said that angel number 123 can be seen as a sign of progression (steps) along a journey. This certainly makes sense to me. As further validation that this was a message I had two additional signs that related to this.

My husband and I were out doing a little shopping yesterday. When I was looking at plants outside in the garden area of Lowe's I heard a song play that had numbers in it. I was able to find the song when I returned home in a Google search. Get this, the song title is 1234 by the Plain White T's! It's a great little song about love. Plain White T's - 1234 
Thank you, Graham, my dear son. When we were finished at Lowe's we went to Barnes and Noble. When I was checking out I noticed a display table that had children's books on it. One of the books' titles was 123! I couldn't believe it. I took a picture of the book. There are so many different ways that we can receive signs and messages. Be aware, trust and believe. Spirit is always talking to us. We are never truly alone.

Saturday, August 16, 2014

Graham St.

My husband and I drove to a neighboring town today.  Driving back home the traffic was terrible on 1-95 so we got off and tried a different route.  It wasn't the way we would normally go.  We were so surprised when we saw this street sign- GRAHAM ST.!  We had no idea there was a street by this name in this other town we were in.  Another mile or two down the road we saw a sign for GRAHAM PARK RD. but were unable to get a picture of it.  Wonderful signs from our son that he wanted us to see.  I got a little teary-eyed.   Graham shows he is always surrounding us with his love and comfort to keep us moving forward.  We are doing our best.  Love is the bridge.  Love is everything. 

Friday, August 15, 2014

Messages of Comfort

I have been feeling a little sad this week.  I know my son is doing his best to comfort me with his signs and messages.  I am so grateful.  The signs and messages help so much.  They are validations of Graham's continuing presence and love that soothe my grieving heart.

This morning as I was driving a van caught my eye because it had a graphic that read MONARCH POOL SERVICES and had two orange butterflies on it.  At that same time the John Lennon song, We All Shine On, played on my car radio.  I have that song on my iTunes play list.  A few minutes later a favorite message song of mine played, I Will Wait, By Mumford and Sons.  When I was doing my grocery shopping, I heard the Evanescence song, My Immortal, play in the store.  This hauntingly beautiful song has great meaning to me too, and is also on my play list.  

When I was driving home I saw a car with a heart decal in the back window.  I managed to take a picture of it.  A little while later I saw another car with a wonderful message - Angel Rides!  Hearts, love, light, immortality, butterflies, transformation, and angels.  Thank you, my sweet boy.  I hear your messages and see your signs.  I love you too.  Understanding that you are still here is my greatest comfort.  Love is always and forever. 

Thursday, July 31, 2014

Messages of Love From Heaven

I was delightfully surprised last night with a message from my dear son!  I was signed into the chat room and listening to this BlogTalkRadio when Pamela said she had a message for me!  It is the greatest comfort to understand that our relationships don't end when a loved one passes.  To still be able to communicate means more than anything.  Thank you, Graham.  I love you more than I could ever say. 

Messages of Love from Heaven with Host and Medium Pamela Marie Edmunds

Recorded Show

Wednesday, July 23, 2014

Rainbow Cloud Angel

My husband just stepped out onto our deck and then called for me to come and look at a cloud. There was a rainbow in it! I said we need to take some pictures. When looking at the pictures on the computer I now notice the cloud is unusually shaped too. I think it looks like a rainbow angel, my darling angel boy. I can also clearly see his face. I believe that our dear son, Graham, was giving his mom and dad a heavenly hello.

"No matter how far I'm gonna find my way to you..."

Colbie Caillat - "Rainbow" (YouTube)

Tuesday, July 15, 2014

Divine Memories Angel Statue

Last Tuesday I had the thought of adding an angel statue to the planted island area in our front yard. I did a little searching on line and found one that I thought might be nice, but wasn't certain. The next day I decided to look a little more and found an angel statue that had me in tears. I had such a powerful emotional reaction to it - I knew this was the one. It is called "Divine Memories." It is available from Amazon and this website:

I was having a little landscaping done in my yard that same day. When the work was completed I went out to see what had been done. I was so surprised to find a feather in the yard by this finished work!
When my husband came home from work I showed him the angel statue online and the feather I had found. He really liked the statue too. We then ordered it online.

Wednesday evenings I usually listen to one of our wonderful group members' ( Pamela Marie Edmunds MediumandHealer ) blogtalkradio internet radio shows. My husband said, isn't it interesting that Pamela's show tonight is titled, "The Power of Angels?" Wow! I hadn't even put that together with the other angel signs. It was further validation when Pamela's guest even mentioned angel statues and feathers as signs from angels. I am so grateful to know that we all have a heavenly team of unconditional love, support and guidance.

Our special "Divine Memories" angel statue arrived this afternoon. We now have it as another memorial for our treasured son, Graham, who did so much work in our yard. Graham, we love and honor you in every breath we take.

Monday, July 14, 2014

Memorial Garden Butterfly Release

Yesterday afternoon the Northern Virginia Chapter of Bereaved Parents of the USA had it's 3rd Annual Butterfly Release at our chapter's lovely Memorial Garden. The garden grows more beautiful every year. It is a healing sanctuary filled with our treasured children's presence. Here I am releasing my butterfly at my son's memorial stone.
Here is a link to the Bereaved Parents of the USA.
You might be interested in seeing if there is a local chapter near you that holds monthly support meetings and special events during the year. Bereaved Parents of the USA has a national conference every summer. There is a free quarterly online newsletter available too.

Saturday, June 28, 2014

More Signs and Messages

I had another series of wonderful signs and messages today. I'd like to share some of the ways we can receive them.

This afternoon while my husband and I were out to do some errands I noticed a personalized license plate on a car in the lane next to ours. It read "R PATH" (our path) and was a butterfly license plate! This really struck me because I feel that my son in spirit and I share a path together, and the butterfly was certainly meaningful too. When we were driving a little later to a different store the beautiful song, "All Of Me," by John Legend played on our car radio. I love this song. Here it is on YouTube: It means so much to me. I just recently added it to my iTunes play list. As I was remarking on this to my husband he said, look what's on the back of the van in front of us. It said "Angel's"! When we went into the garden section of the store we were at I saw these yard stakes - a butterfly, a dragonfly, and a cardinal! What wonderful signs!

To top this all off when we returned home and I checked the mail I was very surprised to see there was a package for me. It was from a girlfriend of mine. It was a T-shirt with patriotic butterflies on it and patriotic heart shaped earrings with a lovely card. The 4th of July is a bittersweet day for me. That was the last holiday we had with our dear son. We had a lovely time with family and friends outdoors on our patio then, and the picture of Graham with this post is from that celebration. We never could have imagined that Graham would be gone two months later. I don't know if my girlfriend even knows this. She was living overseas when Graham passed. In her card she said," Happy 4th - can you guess - yes butterflies - Graham's always there with you!" Wow! I couldn't help but cry. Love is everything, and nothing else matters. Love to us all.

Sunday, June 22, 2014

A Sign Filled Afternoon

Signs and messages can come in so many different ways.
This afternoon my husband and I went out to run a few errands. Our first stop was to the grocery store for a couple of items. When we parked our car we noticed the personalized license plate on the car parked in front of us. It was a little unusual. It read, MY SOUL. We took a picture of it.
When we were checking out the cashier asked me if I wanted to purchase a scratch-off ticket for a dollar for children's cancer. I said okay, as it's something I usually do. As we were leaving the store I said to my husband, "Wouldn't it be nice if we ever did win any money from these tickets?" When we got in the car I scratched off the ticket and was so surprised to see that I had scratched off three fives, 555, meaning I had won $5.00. But I also knew that this was a message. Here is the meaning of 555 in Angel Numbers -
As we were driving to our next stop one of the most beautiful message songs from my dear son played on our car radio, "I Will Wait," by Mumford and Sons. I love this song! Here it is on YouTube -
A few minutes later I couldn't believe the personalized license plate I saw on a car in the lane next to us, NVR ENDS (Never Ends). This has so much personal significance. LOVE NEVER ENDS is what we had engraved on Graham's grave stone. It's also what is engraved on the back of the thumbprint necklace I always wear with Graham's thumbprint.
Be open, be aware. Trust and believe. Our loved ones in spirit are a living presence in a different form. They are still here. We can learn a new way to communicate when we learn the language of spirit. Love is the bridge. Love to us all.

Tuesday, June 3, 2014

2014 Memorial Day Confederate Cemetery Luminaria

My husband and I attended the Memorial Day luminaria ceremony at the Fredericksburg Confederate Cemetery last week. My family discovered just over a year ago that I have an ancestor who is buried here. All we ever knew was that he died somewhere in Virginia. He is my great-great-great grandfather who was from Georgia. When downloading some pictures this morning from the event we noticed the large orb on my husband's shoulder! I feel it is our dear son, Graham, sharing this occasion with us. I definitely felt his presence. Forever by our sides.