Within My Heart

I think about you when I go to bed at night,
I think about you with the morning light,
I think about you throughout the day,
You are always only a thought away.

Death took you physically,
But otherwise you are still with me,
Love does not disappear,
Because you are no longer here.

You are me and I am you,
Nothing can separate us two,
Although on earth we are now apart,
You live forever within my heart.

Celestial Realms

You can now be found,
In Heaven’s celestial realms,
No longer bound by earthly cares,
Trouble-free and light as air.

Happy, and where you are meant to be,
In the plan of eternity,
Having made that highest climb,
Living in joy sublime.

I envy you your new birth,
It’s hard living on this earth,
And with you no longer here,
My days are filled with many tears.

I am trusting in a Divine plan,
Believing our lives are in God’s hands,
Finding faith to persevere,
Praying life’s meaning becomes more clear.

I want to be happy too,
Even though I can’t be with you,
You are with me in other ways,
I feel your presence every day.

Run amidst the moon and stars,
We are together wherever we are,
Love can’t be measured by hours or minutes,
Love has no boundaries, love has no limits.

Wondering Why

When I am in that twilight state,
Half asleep and half awake,
On fully awakening there are times I find,
I am saying my poetry in my mind.

Sometimes I realize that I am crying,
Grief always present with my son dying,
In this sadness I start the day,
It’s harder than I could ever say.

I don’t know why this has to be,
So little now makes sense to me,
Somehow I manage to go on,
Praying for peace with each new dawn.

A Shooting Star

You were like starlight,
Burning bright,
Vibrating with intensity,
With all that you came here to be.

Like a shooting star in the sky,
Glorious, but quickly passing by,
How could we know your life would be so fleeting,
Leaving us to search for meaning?

The duality of living here,
Is often filled with fear,
I want the oneness that is true,
To still be able to connect with you.

Concepts that might not resonate with some,
But a journey I have consciously begun,
Following the trail you blazed for me,
Take my hand and help me to see.

As I strive with all my might,
To get beyond this dark night,
Because love can never disappear,
You will always be right here.

A Big Bouquet of Balloons

If I could be one of the balloons,
Released to our children gone too soon,
I would joyously sail straight to you,
Among the clouds in a sky of blue.

Without a care,
And light as air,
My sorrow would slip away,
Leaving behind unhappy days.

 A loving mother with her dearest son,
Together once again,
What a dream this would be,
If it were a possibility.

As the balloons float to you above,
I know you feel all my love,
Sent to you with joy and tears,
For every single precious year.

You filled my heart for all time,
I am so grateful you were mine,
Watch for me, I’ll join you soon,
With a big bouquet of beautiful balloons.

God's Garden

You are in God’s garden,
With Jesus and all the saints,
Side by side with angels,
Shining in God’s holy grace.

In a kingdom filled with glory,
And joy and eternal light,
Imbued with brilliant colors,
That inspire and delight.

A soul at peace in Heaven,
Having journeyed home again,
No more trials and tribulations,
Those have come to an end.

With love beyond imagining,
No selfishness or strife,
Only harmony and peace abounding,
In everlasting life.

Our love is forever,
I know you wait for me,
I’ll join you in God’s garden,
When it’s my time to see.

Heart Song

The haunting strains,
Of love’s sweet refrain,
Softly play,
Throughout my days.

Beautiful notes of memories past,
Music that will forever last,
Up and down the distant chords,
Remind me of times adored.

No matter the tune that I now hear,
In the background your song is clear,
Gently fingering my heartstrings,
Songs of love and remembering.

Beautiful melodies intertwining,
With love and joy realigning,
Two hearts that beat as one,
In harmony with my beloved son.

The First Annual Afterlife Awareness Conference

We just saw this link from a friend on facebook, Mitch Carmody (he's going to be a speaker at the conference, and was a speaker at the Compassionate Friends National Conference I attended last month). It sounds like an amazing conference, with many fascinating speakers.  Check it out!

The First Annual Afterlife Awareness Conference

Acceptance

I pray for my heart to be open, my focus clear,
To reveal to me why I am here,
To help me focus on the now,
Releasing the past and future somehow.

Fully living all days as they come,
Knowing they are part of the sum,
I don’t want to look back with regret,
On expectations that were unmet.

Thankful for opportunities to love and to grow,
Accepting all happiness and sorrow,
Believing that all is as it should be,
Please grant me this serenity.

Love that was is never lost,
Love is worth whatever its cost,
A gift to honor and to treasure,
Comforted in knowing that love is forever.

One More Day Without You

One more day without you,
Somehow time passes by,
One more day without you,
How long does a mother cry?

One more day without you,
The days turn into years,
One more day without you,
Since you last were here.

One more day without you,
The sun is shining bright,
One more day without you,
As the sun fades into night.

One more day without you,
But you are always in my thoughts,
One more day without you,
Holding you in my heart.

One more day without you,
Yet each day turns into the past,
One more day without you,
Then we’ll be together at last.

If Only I Could See You

You are now a shining light,
Having walked through Heaven’s door,
Reassuring us you’re happy,
Returning to Spirit form once more.

I know my time is not done here,
And you cannot come home,
If I could just visit you each day,
I’d not feel so alone.

If I could climb God’s stairway,
I know where I would be,
Spending time with you again,
So contentedly.

I miss your physical presence,
Your handsome, precious face,
I want to hug and kiss you,
And feel your warm embrace.

There are a million I love you’s,
That I would like to say,
Along with all the thank you’s,
For every shared day.

I miss you more than ever,
Although you’re eternally in my heart,
If only I could see you,
It would ease my broken heart.

My Darling Little Boy

When you were my darling little boy,
I would sing you children’s songs with joy,
Lying beside you on your bed,
My precious little sleepy head.

I would sing your favorite songs,
Some were short and some were long,
You would listen happily,
Curled up cozily next to me.

A special time for us to share,
You and me and your teddy bear,
With your baby blanket clutched to your face,
I would snuggle you in a warm embrace.

With your head upon your pillow,
I sang, How Much Is That Doggie In The Window,
And the song, My Grandfather’s Clock,
With the rhythmic words, tick tock, tick tock.

I would kiss you on your little cheeks,
And tell you, now you go to sleep,
Tucking you in for the night,
I would then turn off your light.

Your death cannot take away,
These memories of our precious days,
Moments that live forever,
Within my heart to treasure.

I love you.