Unsatisfying Phrases

“He's in a better place,”
As if that can erase,
The loss of a loved one's sweet embrace,
Or the sight of that precious face.

“We can't know,”
Goes to show,
How little these phrases satisfy,
We do want to know, why?

Consciousness risen,
Answers be given,
To the journey of a soul,
This is my goal.

With an open heart and an open mind,
I pray that I may find,
What was lost,
At the greatest cost.

To be able to release,
And to find the peace,
The comfort, the surety,
That all is as it's meant to be.

Always

This picture of Graham, me, and his grandmother (my mother) was taken at VCU's Spring Exhibition for the graphic arts majors.  Graham had several posters on display.

 

If home is where your heart is,
Then my home is far away,
Because my heart went with you,
The day you passed away.

In the kingdom of Heaven,
Is where my heart now resides,
Because it beats with yours forever,
With all the love I hold inside.

No one could love you more than I do,
Remember, I used to tell you so,
There is no stronger bond of love,
Than a mother and child can know.

I miss you here beside me,
The calls we made each day,
I would give anything,
To hear what you have to say.

Your funny observations,
Your serious, probing thoughts,
Your clever witticisms,
All are missed a lot.

The joy of seeing you marry,
To have children of your own,
Are no longer possible,
For you have gone back home.

I mourn your crossing over,
That it was your earthly time to die,
I know you are happy in Heaven,
But I still can’t help but cry.

You are flying freely now,
There is nothing to weigh you down,
In many ways you show me,
That you are still around.

I loved being your mother,
Thank you for being my son,
You are with me always,
Forever we are as one.

The Bigger Picture

If I live the average number of years,
Calculated while I am here,
I am already two-thirds through,
With what I came here to do.

It gives one pause upon reflection,
Because there’s so much to question,
Has the life you’ve lived so far,
Positively defined who you are?

Have you fulfilled your hopes and dreams?
Are you happy with what you’ve done and seen?
Have you tried your very best,
So in contentment you may rest?

We must pray for God’s love and light,
To help us to keep shining bright,
It’s easy to become disillusioned,
And to live in a state of confusion.

When life doesn’t go as you planned,
It’s so hard to understand,
You realize there’s so much we don’t know,
And that we really have little control.

The picture is much bigger than we can see,
In the plan of eternity,
There is no timeframe for a soul,
Only one consistent goal.

That is to experience, learn and grow,
So that we eventually come to know,
The sacred breath of life,
That unites us all in Heaven’s light.

Mother's Day 2011

I'm blessed to be able to share this Mother's Day weekend with my mother and dad.

Count your blessings large and small,
Be thankful for them all,
A beautiful day, a note from a friend,
Your pet’s happy greeting, the list never ends.

The love of your family, a baby’s smile,
So many things make life worthwhile,
When at night you go to bed,
Make a list inside your head.

What did your day bring?
Think of any positive thing,
Let the shadows move and pass,
Dark clouds do not always last.

Look for the sun, for it will rise,
Let no negative visions obscure the eyes,
Ask for any Heavenly help,
To move beyond thoughts of self.

Cherish every happy memory and know,
That we are here to learn and grow,
And that if we walk each day in love,
All our needs will be taken care of.

Arizona Trip

I spent my birthday flying to Arizona.  My husband and I spent the weekend at an Afterlife Awareness conference.  It was very interesting.  The best part of the conference were the people attending. It turns out that three quarters of the attendees were parents that had lost children.  You could feel the love. 
When the conference was over we drove to Sedona for a couple of days.  What a beautiful place!  There really is a special feel to it.  Here are a couple of pictures we took at an amazing little church, the Chapel of the Holy Cross just outside Sedona, where I lit a candle for Graham.