Sunday, January 30, 2011
Mysteries Inside of Me
If all life's answers are within,
Then that's where I’ll begin,
I don't have to travel far,
To look for things that already are.
Mysteries inside of me,
Waiting patiently to be,
Unwrapped, examined, and revealed,
No longer to be concealed.
Trust and faith and intuition,
May God's love bring to fruition,
Acceptance, wisdom, and strength of being,
Confidence in the all-seeing.
To bring joy and peace of mind,
That I am working hard to find,
Knowing that death is not the end,
Just a change of form again.
As above, so below,
There is a universal flow,
I want to know why I am here,
And not live my life in fear.
Looking forward to the day,
When my life has played,
So in contentment I’ll be at rest,
Knowing while here I did my best.
Then that's where I’ll begin,
I don't have to travel far,
To look for things that already are.
Mysteries inside of me,
Waiting patiently to be,
Unwrapped, examined, and revealed,
No longer to be concealed.
Trust and faith and intuition,
May God's love bring to fruition,
Acceptance, wisdom, and strength of being,
Confidence in the all-seeing.
To bring joy and peace of mind,
That I am working hard to find,
Knowing that death is not the end,
Just a change of form again.
As above, so below,
There is a universal flow,
I want to know why I am here,
And not live my life in fear.
Looking forward to the day,
When my life has played,
So in contentment I’ll be at rest,
Knowing while here I did my best.
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
The Spark Within
Love never ends,
It moves, it bends,
The spark of light within,
Will always transcend,
Any despair, pain or grief,
Giving the comfort that we seek.
Show me the way,
I pray each day,
Guide me on my journey;
Let there be no hurry,
So that I might rest within my quest,
For love's eternal glory.
It moves, it bends,
The spark of light within,
Will always transcend,
Any despair, pain or grief,
Giving the comfort that we seek.
Show me the way,
I pray each day,
Guide me on my journey;
Let there be no hurry,
So that I might rest within my quest,
For love's eternal glory.
Thursday, January 20, 2011
Our Journey
Each of us has a journey to make,
Individual trails to take,
We don't always know,
Which path we should follow.
To some the road is crystal clear,
Others have no idea,
Should they turn left or right,
Uneasy, not knowing what's in sight?
Sometimes the path seems straight,
Then along comes Fate,
Suddenly there's a detour,
That you don't know if you can endure.
I want to be able to get back on track,
Overcoming emotions of profound lack,
Show me the signs that point the way,
So I won't be lost for all my days.
With the map for my soul,
I will travel towards my goal,
With an internal beacon directing me,
Shining a light for me to see.
Individual trails to take,
We don't always know,
Which path we should follow.
To some the road is crystal clear,
Others have no idea,
Should they turn left or right,
Uneasy, not knowing what's in sight?
Sometimes the path seems straight,
Then along comes Fate,
Suddenly there's a detour,
That you don't know if you can endure.
I want to be able to get back on track,
Overcoming emotions of profound lack,
Show me the signs that point the way,
So I won't be lost for all my days.
With the map for my soul,
I will travel towards my goal,
With an internal beacon directing me,
Shining a light for me to see.
Sunday, January 16, 2011
Sweetest Baby
Sweetest baby, precious boy,
You brought us so much joy,
You were busy from day one,
Keeping me on the run.
You were always in a hurry,
Giving me times of worry,
You crawled, you walked much too fast,
I hoped that my energy would last.
Baby, toddler, little boy,
All the stages to enjoy,
Teenage guy to bright young man,
What an adventurous life span.
Grateful for the gift of you,
We think of you in all we do,
Thank you God, for the time we had,
Don't let us always be so sad.
You brought us so much joy,
You were busy from day one,
Keeping me on the run.
You were always in a hurry,
Giving me times of worry,
You crawled, you walked much too fast,
I hoped that my energy would last.
Baby, toddler, little boy,
All the stages to enjoy,
Teenage guy to bright young man,
What an adventurous life span.
Grateful for the gift of you,
We think of you in all we do,
Thank you God, for the time we had,
Don't let us always be so sad.
Friday, January 14, 2011
Internet Radio Interview
I thought my interview on Donna Tyson's Rivers of Faith show went very well. You can listen to the show by going to this link: http://herewomentalkradio.com/home/archives_details/526
Monday, January 10, 2011
Internet Radio Show
I will be on this show tomorrow, January 11, at 11:00 EST. Listen, and call in if you can. I hope that it will be a very meaningful show, and comforting to other grieving families.
Saturday, January 8, 2011
Go Within
Go within for what you seek,
Hear your soul softly speak,
Still your mind,
And you will find,
Help in dealing with what must be,
Inner peace and serenity.
Give your anguish up to God,
Some things are just too hard,
Surrender and let go,
Tap into the divine flow,
Learning to accept with grace,
All in life that we may face.
Hear your soul softly speak,
Still your mind,
And you will find,
Help in dealing with what must be,
Inner peace and serenity.
Give your anguish up to God,
Some things are just too hard,
Surrender and let go,
Tap into the divine flow,
Learning to accept with grace,
All in life that we may face.
Tuesday, January 4, 2011
Five More Minutes
If I could have five more minutes with my son who died,
I’d be so ecstatic that he was alive,
“I love you, I love you, I love you,” I’d say,
And how much he is missed each day.
I would hold him in a tight embrace,
While looking at his beloved face,
Telling him how thankful I am to have been his mother,
And for every moment we spent together.
I’d say how proud I was of him,
And that it means the world seeing him again,
Only five minutes, such a brief time,
But the possibility would be a lifeline.
I know I’d be crying continuous tears,
Overwhelmed that he could once more be here,
Knowing there were only minutes until he’d have to depart,
Would be a bittersweet agony in my heart.
If only this could be true,
And time could be something new,
Love can’t be measured by hours or minutes,
But there’s a hole in my life without him in it.
I’d be so ecstatic that he was alive,
“I love you, I love you, I love you,” I’d say,
And how much he is missed each day.
I would hold him in a tight embrace,
While looking at his beloved face,
Telling him how thankful I am to have been his mother,
And for every moment we spent together.
I’d say how proud I was of him,
And that it means the world seeing him again,
Only five minutes, such a brief time,
But the possibility would be a lifeline.
I know I’d be crying continuous tears,
Overwhelmed that he could once more be here,
Knowing there were only minutes until he’d have to depart,
Would be a bittersweet agony in my heart.
If only this could be true,
And time could be something new,
Love can’t be measured by hours or minutes,
But there’s a hole in my life without him in it.
Saturday, January 1, 2011
Another Year
Another year has gone by,
Three hundred sixty five more days I’ve cried,
The pain of my son’s passing never goes away,
I live with sorrow every single day.
Without him here life feels incomplete,
So many moments now are bittersweet,
A young man whose adult life was just ahead,
It doesn’t seem possible that he is dead.
There was so much we looked forward to,
A daughter-in-law and his children too,
A happy family that would often get together,
Celebrating love and each other.
Memories are all I have now to keep,
With love for my son that runs so deep,
But there is no greater treasure,
For me to cherish and remember.
Sunday, December 26, 2010
A Pervasive Sadness
We set a place for Graham for our Christmas dinner yesterday. I know he was with us in spirit, but we like to also have him symbolically at the table. We love you, Graham, and are so grateful to have had 21 precious Christmases with you. You are forever in our hearts.
I don’t know why my son passed away,
I miss him every single day,
A pervasive sadness stays with me,
Keeping constant company.
I still smile, but my smile holds sorrow,
For the loss of him in our tomorrows,
There was such joy while he was here,
And anticipation of the coming years.
The energy he brought to our lives is gone,
There is such emptiness as we carry on,
Nothing can ever take the place,
Of seeing our son’s beloved face.
I pray that love will fill this hole,
That has been torn into my soul,
Heavenly comfort to sustain me,
As I learn to accept what must be.
I miss him every single day,
A pervasive sadness stays with me,
Keeping constant company.
I still smile, but my smile holds sorrow,
For the loss of him in our tomorrows,
There was such joy while he was here,
And anticipation of the coming years.
The energy he brought to our lives is gone,
There is such emptiness as we carry on,
Nothing can ever take the place,
Of seeing our son’s beloved face.
I pray that love will fill this hole,
That has been torn into my soul,
Heavenly comfort to sustain me,
As I learn to accept what must be.
Thursday, December 23, 2010
Our Child Forever
In the darkness with my tears,
Grieving that you are no longer here,
I rub my heart to ease the pain,
That has settled in my chest again.
I talk to you in my mind,
You are with me all the time,
Your dad and I mention you every day,
Because you are only thoughts away.
You remain our child forever,
Every moment shared we remember,
We often smile as well as cry,
With only memories since you died.
Occasions of humor and family joy,
Special times with our dear boy,
You couldn’t have been a more loving son,
We were blessed with your devotion.
I am so grateful to have been your mom,
And would give anything if you weren’t gone,
You live with me now in a spiritual way,
Your love encircles me each day.
I love you so very much,
I miss that we can’t physically touch,
Or pick up the phone and speak with you,
Like I always used to do.
Watch for us at Heaven’s gate,
Your dad and I know you wait,
With pure joy we will reunite,
In God’s love and celestial light.
Grieving that you are no longer here,
I rub my heart to ease the pain,
That has settled in my chest again.
I talk to you in my mind,
You are with me all the time,
Your dad and I mention you every day,
Because you are only thoughts away.
You remain our child forever,
Every moment shared we remember,
We often smile as well as cry,
With only memories since you died.
Occasions of humor and family joy,
Special times with our dear boy,
You couldn’t have been a more loving son,
We were blessed with your devotion.
I am so grateful to have been your mom,
And would give anything if you weren’t gone,
You live with me now in a spiritual way,
Your love encircles me each day.
I love you so very much,
I miss that we can’t physically touch,
Or pick up the phone and speak with you,
Like I always used to do.
Watch for us at Heaven’s gate,
Your dad and I know you wait,
With pure joy we will reunite,
In God’s love and celestial light.
Sunday, December 19, 2010
The Magic of Love
Christmas 2006 was our last Christmas with Graham. Here is a picture of Graham with his sister, Laura, with some of their gifts. We cherish that last Christmas. Nine months later Graham was gone in a moment, and our whole world changed.
It now seems like a fantasy,
When you were my son here with me,
A wonderful magical time,
When I was yours and you were mine.
The future held no fears,
I looked forward to coming years,
You were always returning home,
Or talking with me on the phone.
I see you in my mind’s eye,
It’s so hard to believe you died,
Forever you will be twenty-two,
Time stopped then for me and you.
Perhaps time is not what we think,
That we have an eternal link,
And there can somehow still be magic,
Within an event that’s so tragic.
Love is what will transcend all pain,
From love is the magic that we gain,
You can never truly be separate from me,
Because love has no finality.
When you were my son here with me,
A wonderful magical time,
When I was yours and you were mine.
The future held no fears,
I looked forward to coming years,
You were always returning home,
Or talking with me on the phone.
I see you in my mind’s eye,
It’s so hard to believe you died,
Forever you will be twenty-two,
Time stopped then for me and you.
Perhaps time is not what we think,
That we have an eternal link,
And there can somehow still be magic,
Within an event that’s so tragic.
Love is what will transcend all pain,
From love is the magic that we gain,
You can never truly be separate from me,
Because love has no finality.
Thursday, December 16, 2010
Forever By Our Sides
You’ve climbed that highest mountain,
Your earthly life is done,
You are home again in Heaven,
All your battles here won.
Some people live a lot of years,
Others only a few,
Many lives are only minutes,
Just briefly passing through.
What is the rhyme or reason?
We desperately want to know,
Our hearts are torn and aching,
Not wanting ever to let go.
Parents never think to bury their children,
Our minds don’t work that way,
We assume our children will remain here,
Long after we’ve passed away.
The shock and trauma of your child dying,
Is a pain beyond this earth,
Parents promise to love and care for,
Their children from their birth.
Although we no longer see our children,
Or hear their earthly voice,
They are a part of us forever,
In this we can rejoice.
Love is not the body,
Love does not die,
We miss their physical presence,
But know our children stay close by.
We feel them with us always,
Their love is now our guide,
We are blessed to have them with us,
Forever by our sides.
Your earthly life is done,
You are home again in Heaven,
All your battles here won.
Some people live a lot of years,
Others only a few,
Many lives are only minutes,
Just briefly passing through.
What is the rhyme or reason?
We desperately want to know,
Our hearts are torn and aching,
Not wanting ever to let go.
Parents never think to bury their children,
Our minds don’t work that way,
We assume our children will remain here,
Long after we’ve passed away.
The shock and trauma of your child dying,
Is a pain beyond this earth,
Parents promise to love and care for,
Their children from their birth.
Although we no longer see our children,
Or hear their earthly voice,
They are a part of us forever,
In this we can rejoice.
Love is not the body,
Love does not die,
We miss their physical presence,
But know our children stay close by.
We feel them with us always,
Their love is now our guide,
We are blessed to have them with us,
Forever by our sides.