Six Year Angelversary

My husband and I went to the cemetery on Sunday the 22nd of September to place flowers at our dear Graham's grave.  I took an art piece I painted of Graham that has a lot of significance to me.  It's still so hard to believe that we have an anniversary like this. 

As we were leaving the cemetery we saw a young deer.  We had never seen a deer there before.  The deer just stood there looking straight into our eyes.  I felt that was a message for us.  Here is a link to the symbolism of deer.
http://www.spiritanimal.info/deer-spirit-animal/

On the Wings of Love

Last weekend our local chapter of the Bereaved Parents of the USA held our second Butterfly Release.  This special event was held in the beautiful Memorial Garden that the group created last year in loving memory of our precious children.  

The garden is filled with such a sense of peace and love.  I read two of my poems as part of the program, "Butterfly" and "In the Garden of What Might Have Been."  It was a heart-filled day.  Our dear children, always and forever. 

XO 22 OX

I felt that I received several little signs yesterday.  The first one was hearing the song "Home" by Daughtry on my car radio this morning as I was driving.  I have that song on my iTunes play list. It makes me think of my son, Graham.   Later, when I was driving home I saw an unusual license plate. It read "XO 22 OX."  Kisses and hugs, and 22!  My son was 22 years old when he passed, and he passed on the 22nd of September, two days from now.  I made myself a latte that afternoon. I drank it and set the cup aside.  A little later I went to rinse it out and stopped before I did because I noticed the pattern in the residue at the bottom of the cup.  It looks like two hearts with a dove above them to me.  Love and peace. Comforting messages during this difficult month.  Love transcends space and time. Here is a picture and also a link to this special song.  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p2nr9oBRsRg

September Memories

 

Six years ago at this time, my son had come home for the weekend. Graham had just started his senior year of college the month before at Virginia Commonwealth University in Richmond.  It was always so nice for us that Graham was only an hour or so away.  We were able to see him often.  He had been home all summer as he had a summer graphic design internship with our local paper here in Fredericksburg.   Our daughter, Laura, was home that summer too. She was commuting to VCU for a summer session towards her masters degree in Music Education.  We were blessed to all be together again as a family for this special summer.  His dad and I could never have imagined this weekend would be the last time that we would see our dearest Graham, and that this picture I took of him at the crape myrtle would be our last picture of him.  The picture of me is with this same crape myrtle he planted six years ago now. Our hearts broke when Graham suddenly passed. Graham's physical form is gone, but he is still here, forever by our sides.  Love is always and forever. 

A Moment in Time

The last thing you did before you drove away,
On a beautiful September day,
To help out your dad and me,
Was plant a lovely crape myrtle tree.

It was the last one planted out of five,
To be enjoyed while we’re on the patio outside,
I watched you while you were hard at work,
Digging up all that dirt.

“Let me take your picture,” I said,
And you smiled and turned your head,
I took a wonderful picture of you,
Beside the crepe myrtle when you were through.

The following weekend you were dead,
There are no words that can be said,
You were here one moment, the next you were gone,
And we are left to struggle on.

Who could know that picture would be our last,
Of the twenty-two years that had passed,
From our darling baby to handsome young man,
We are working hard to understand.

I treasure that picture that now hangs on our wall,
A special moment in time to recall,
And when I look at the crape myrtle tree,
I see your beloved face smiling at me.

Your Love Is a Song

I just recently found this beautiful song - "Your Love Is a Song," by Switchfoot:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rnSCXU4_IwU

This song reminds me of my "Music of the Soul" poem:

Music of the Soul

We cry for ourselves, not loved ones gone,
They are happy in the great beyond,
No more burdens, heartache or stress,
They live in a state of pure happiness.

It’s those of us left behind,
Who struggle with the concept of time,
On this planet of pain and tears,
Learning and growing through the years.

What a blessing you were to me,
Like a magnificent symphony,
With haunting passages of turbulent lows,
Mixed with brilliant crescendos.

Across the pages lines of notes play,
But then abruptly go away,
A symphony of the story of you,
My wonderful son of twenty-two.

What movement would be playing now,
If you were still here somehow?
A work of such hope and promise,
With so much more to accomplish.

My darling son,
Your earthly work must have been done,
You are now a more brilliant light,
Just beyond earthly sight.

Composing more passages on another plane,
With knowledge earned through joy and pain,
The music of your soul will always flow,
In our hearts, this we know.

Listening with our inner ear,
The melody is very clear,
We will strive to overcome our sorrow,
In God’s promise of a joyous tomorrow.

I Feel the Strength of Your Love

Many of you know how meaningful the word "always" is to me. That is what my personalized license plate reads.   I have also written a few poems with the understanding in my heart that love is always and forever.  Today I was in a store and happened to walk by a display of Willow Tree figurines.   I stopped to look at them and saw one I hadn't seen before.  It brought tears to my eyes.  It is called "Always," and underneath that it says "I feel the strength of your love."   I of course brought it home with me.   The picture with this post is this special figurine.   A beautiful message of love and comfort to find today.  Thank you, Graham, my sweet angel boy.
 

Always Near

Every day I feel you near,
Your spirit and energy are still here,
Because I don’t see you physically,
Doesn’t mean you cease to be.

In my life you will always stay,
Nothing can take your presence away,
Grateful for every moment we had together,
Comforted in knowing our love is forever.

I work to not dwell in the past,
Because the blessing of you will forever last,
To bring that forward to the now,
Is what I strive to accomplish somehow.

I am doing the best that I can,
I pray that Spirit understands,
The mourning process is long and slow,
My child’s death not a grief I thought to know.

So many emotions to process and release,
On the road to finding peace,
Thank you for the signs you’ve shown,
To help me not feel so alone.

Knowing you are part of a divine team,
Always present, but not necessarily seen,
Gives me strength to journey on,
When I feel all joy is gone.

Bless you angels, bless you guides,
Thank you loved ones on the other side,
I feel the support and love from you,
With the deepest gratitude.

Heavenly solace for soul-deep pain,
Divine love for me to gain,
Open my heart so that I may receive,
The gift of grace to heal and believe.

September Comfort

As today rolled into September I found myself teary and emotional. September is the month my treasured son, Graham, passed.  A song that really speaks to me as a message from my son came on the car radio as my husband and I were driving!  It is on my iTunes play list.  As I am typing this the motion activated doorbell alarm in my basement just ding donged twice!  There is no one in my basement. Thank you, Graham, for your eternal loving presence and comfort. I love you.

Mumford and Sons - "I Will Wait"

A Heavenly Message of Love

There are so many wonderful different ways we can receive messages or signs from our loved ones.   Most mornings I like to draw a card from an oracle card deck for a little guidance or focus for the day.  This morning I used Doreen Virtue's Saints and Angels 44 card deck. The card I drew was CHILD!   One of the meanings is "A child in Heaven is happy and doing well, and is sending you a message of love."  It was very comforting.  My son, Graham, always and forever.

Anthony Quinata Show

I am going to be the guest on Anthony Quinata's blogtalkradio show tonight at 7:00 PM EDT. (Sunday, July 28th). The topic is one that is near and dear to my heart, signs from our loved ones! I hope that you will be able to listen. Call in if you have any signs you would like to share. Here is the call in number - (347) 850-8451.
All blogtalkradio shows are archived so you can listen to them at a later time if you are unable to listen to them live.
http://www.blogtalkradio.com/anthonyquinatapsychicmedium/2013/07/28/the-anthony-quinata-show-with-psychic-medium-anthony-quinata

Part of All

Part of All

You are the sunlight shining during the day,

The brightness that illuminates my way,

And the moonlight’s glow throughout the night,

Gently guiding to morning’s light.

With winter’s snows or fresh spring flowers,

In every minute and every hour,

Or in a summer breeze or leaves of fall,

You are an eternal part of all.

My morning star and evening sky,

In all ways you remain close by,

Your love is surrounding and expanding me,

With new vision and horizons to see.

"Summer Specials" on readings by psychic medium Pamela Marie Edmunds

I have had many readings with Pamela over the past several years.  They have all been very helpful and comforting.  There is nothing that means more to me than understanding that death does not end our relationships with our loved ones in spirit.  We learn to communicate in a different way.
 
Pamela Marie Edmunds is a Certified Medium, Holistic Healing Practitioner and Teacher, and has many different types of sessions that she does for others.  She is currently offering "Summer Specials" on Readings, Healing and Trainings.  For more information, see her page at

http://myemail.constantcontact.com/Summer-Specials-withCertified-Medium--Holistic-Healing-Practitioner---Teacher-Pamela-Marie-Edmunds.html?soid=1105697175935&aid=0S0ZtqIbWig

"I love you's" from heaven.

I just had a wonderful message and validation from my angel boy, Graham. I drew an oracle card from Doreen Virtue's "Angel Dreams" deck. There are 55 cards in this deck. I shuffled them a few times and turned over the top card. The card was Passed-Over Loved Ones! Part of the message in this card is "Loved ones in heaven are offering you comfort, guidance, and support. They are sending you messages of love and light." I was so happy to draw this card!
I also drew a card from Doreen Virtue's "Archangel Michael" deck. I drew "Eternal Love!" Part of the specific meaning of this card is "Your loved one in heaven is sending you an "I love you" message. Two different decks with the same loving messages! It was so comforting. I thought that was amazing, but I was in for another wonderful surprise. My daughter is visiting this weekend. She had gone out for a little while. When she returned I asked her if she would like me to draw a card for her. She did, so I shuffled the "Angel Dreams" cards several times and drew a card for her. It was the same card I had drawn, Passed-Over Loved Ones! What are the odds of that happening? There are so many wonderful ways our loved ones in spirit can give us messages! Forever by our sides. ♥

Heart-Shaped Cloud

The other day my husband and I saw this heart-shaped cloud in the sky from our backyard deck.  We took a picture of it to share with a facebook group I am a part of,  http://www.facebook.com/groups/SignsFromOurLovedOnes/  I was thinking that it would be great if I could write a poem about it too.  Members often post photographs of heart shaped clouds they see.  We feel they are one of the ways our loved ones in spirit send us a message of love.  I am pleased to say that I did write a poem. From my heart to yours. <3 br="">

A Love Filled Heart

A heart shaped cloud, brilliantly white,

Came into my line of sight,

While gazing up at a clear blue sky,

There it was drifting by.

A heaven sent sign, a love filled heart,

Closing the distance since we had to part,

Letting me know that you are still here,

A beautiful sign to help feel you near.

A message in the sky given to me,

Because we are connected eternally,

Love is forever, love never ends,

Thank you for the hearts you send.

Chinese Lantern Launch

A few nights ago our local chapter of the Bereaved Parents of the USA held a potluck dinner and Chinese lantern launch in honor of our precious children.  I was inspired to write this poem for it.  The lanterns were white hearts!  It was a very special evening.

 

Chinese Lantern Launch

A special Chinese lantern night,
To reflect our children’s love and light,
Launched into the evening sky,
Glimmering among the stars on high.

Amidst the clouds, up to the moon,
Ascending for our children gone too soon,
Carrying our prayers and all our love,
To our dear ones in the heavens above.

Magical, luminous, sparkling glows,
Like our children’s lives we were blessed to know,
We love you, we miss you, feel our hearts’ wishes,
Sent to you with our love and kisses.