Graham is always with us.
Monday, December 26, 2011
Thursday, December 22, 2011
Christmas Orbs
Christmas Eve, 2008. This was 15 months after my son, Graham, died. I am looking at a Christmas gift with my daughter and son-in-law. When we looked at the picture we were amazed to see the orbs in it! I like to think that it was Graham letting his presence be known with his family on this special day. Here is a link for more information on orbs.
http://wiki.answers.com/Q/What_are_orbs_in_digital_pictures
http://wiki.answers.com/Q/What_are_orbs_in_digital_pictures
Sunday, December 18, 2011
Candles in the Windows
Christmas trees and festive lights,
Brighten up the December nights,
Multi-colored, white or blinking,
Everything appears to be twinkling.
My house has a lovely soft glow,
From candles in every window,
Welcoming in the light of Christ,
On each cold wintery night.
The candles also welcome my son,
Who is now a part of Heaven,
A message of love for those near and far,
With tiny flames like shining stars.
It’s a special way for me to say,
Love is what will show us the way,
The candles are a symbolic guide,
To all the love we hold inside.
Brighten up the December nights,
Multi-colored, white or blinking,
Everything appears to be twinkling.
My house has a lovely soft glow,
From candles in every window,
Welcoming in the light of Christ,
On each cold wintery night.
The candles also welcome my son,
Who is now a part of Heaven,
A message of love for those near and far,
With tiny flames like shining stars.
It’s a special way for me to say,
Love is what will show us the way,
The candles are a symbolic guide,
To all the love we hold inside.
Saturday, December 17, 2011
A site with special scenes to use for your cherished photographs.
http://imikimi.com
A Sign from Heaven?
Monday, December 12, 2011
2011 Worldwide Candle Lighting
I read a poem of mine for our local Compassionate Friends chapter observance for the worldwide candle lighting December 11th. Our children's lights will shine forever.
Thursday, December 1, 2011
The holidays are very difficult for many people for many different reasons. For those grieving the loss of a beloved child there is a service of remembrance held each year in December to help parents during this especially painful time. It is The Compassionate Friends Worldwide Candle Lighting, which will be held Sunday, December 11. Light a candle in precious memory of a child gone too soon. Our children's lights will shine forever. Click on the YouTube link below to hear a poignantly beautiful song and learn more about the candle lighting.
Saturday, November 26, 2011
Another Holiday
We set a place for Graham at our Thanksgiving table and lit his special candle. He is always with us and forever in our hearts.
Another holiday, another year,
Another holiday without you here,
Our festive table was set with your place,
But we couldn’t see your treasured face.
Special candles were lit for you,
Your light shining in all we do,
Our family joined hands and said a prayer,
Wishing you were in the empty chair.
Your death has been a traumatic shock,
If only I could turn back the clock,
I would rewind to an earlier time,
When you were here alive and fine.
Holidays now have “in loving memory” parts,
Because you live forever in our hearts,
Cherished and loved more than I could ever say,
You are included on every special day.
Another holiday without you here,
Our festive table was set with your place,
But we couldn’t see your treasured face.
Special candles were lit for you,
Your light shining in all we do,
Our family joined hands and said a prayer,
Wishing you were in the empty chair.
Your death has been a traumatic shock,
If only I could turn back the clock,
I would rewind to an earlier time,
When you were here alive and fine.
Holidays now have “in loving memory” parts,
Because you live forever in our hearts,
Cherished and loved more than I could ever say,
You are included on every special day.
Wednesday, November 23, 2011
Autumn Leaves
The rusty hues of autumn leaves,
Are silently falling from the trees,
Their branches now are stark and bare,
In the cool crisp autumn air.
The summer has come and gone,
Time is inexorably moving on,
Seasons change and life changes too,
Sometimes I don’t know how I make it through.
The end of September my heart shattered and broke,
With the news I learned when I awoke,
My twenty-two year old son died during the night,
Slipping and falling from a great height.
The world keeps on turning,
And I can’t help yearning,
For a future I thought to see,
But was never meant to be.
I watch the leaves scatter and float to the ground,
As my tears fall without any sound,
Praying for strength to live well each day,
As time gradually slips away.
Sunday, November 20, 2011
An Unknown Shore
With your passing I am so bereft,
I feel like I have been set adrift,
On a raft in uncharted seas,
Searching for a place to be.
Several years have now gone by,
But every day I still cry,
When you left a part of me left too,
My heart broke when I lost you.
The taste of life is now bittersweet,
But my heart continues to beat,
Searching for an unknown shore,
Where we can be together once more.
I feel like I have been set adrift,
On a raft in uncharted seas,
Searching for a place to be.
Several years have now gone by,
But every day I still cry,
When you left a part of me left too,
My heart broke when I lost you.
The taste of life is now bittersweet,
But my heart continues to beat,
Searching for an unknown shore,
Where we can be together once more.
Thursday, November 17, 2011
How Far is Heaven
I really like this song. I have it as the ring tone on my cell phone.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gaHwzkk6tOQ
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gaHwzkk6tOQ
Sunday, November 13, 2011
Never Letting Go
This is a very good book. Mark Anthony writes about healing grief with help from the other side. I liked it a lot. It's an easy read with comforting stories and helpful information. I am so happy a book like this is available. Never Letting Go, by Mark Anthony
Tuesday, November 8, 2011
In God's Hands
You are in God’s hands now,
No longer in my own,
The most devastating lesson,
I could ever have known.
I did not want to release you,
A mother never does,
My hands still ache to hold you,
To guide and cherish and love.
Only you can truly know,
How I feel each day,
The depth of loss and longing,
Ever since you passed away.
I miss you every moment,
You are always in my thoughts,
There is nothing that I do,
In which you are not a part.
I cannot understand fully,
Life’s purpose or divine plan,
All I know is that I love you,
And you are in God’s hands.
Sunday, October 30, 2011
Angelversary Dime
I was buying flowers for my son’s resting place,
As tears were running down my face,
I kept thinking how it’s been four years,
Since the last time that he was here.
I walked out to my car to find,
A bright and shiny silver dime,
Beside my car’s front door,
Not something that I was looking for.
The date on the dime was 2007,
The year my son went to Heaven,
I knew this was a sign for me,
From my son for me to see.
A way of validating what was on my mind,
Acknowledging the four year length of time,
A message that was sent my way,
To help comfort on this difficult day.
I was amazed to receive this Heaven sent sign,
In the parking lot for me to find,
A message of love and continuing ties,
Tangible proof that love never dies.
As tears were running down my face,
I kept thinking how it’s been four years,
Since the last time that he was here.
I walked out to my car to find,
A bright and shiny silver dime,
Beside my car’s front door,
Not something that I was looking for.
The date on the dime was 2007,
The year my son went to Heaven,
I knew this was a sign for me,
From my son for me to see.
A way of validating what was on my mind,
Acknowledging the four year length of time,
A message that was sent my way,
To help comfort on this difficult day.
I was amazed to receive this Heaven sent sign,
In the parking lot for me to find,
A message of love and continuing ties,
Tangible proof that love never dies.
Thursday, October 27, 2011
Beautiful Memorial Ornaments
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By: Grief and Beyond
Tuesday, October 25, 2011
A song about signs
I found this wonderful song about some of the signs our loved ones in spirit use to communicate with us. They want to comfort us in our grief and to show us they are still near. I love listening to this. I hope that you will like it too. It is so reassuring to receive these signs of continuing love and connection. Look and ask for signs from your loved ones.
Every Once in a While, by Cindy Campo
Every Once in a While, by Cindy Campo
Saturday, October 22, 2011
Ascension
(Click on image for larger version.)
You slipped from this world sight unseen,
Lifted on silent angel wings,
Soaring in glorious celestial flight,
Through the darkness of the night.
Past a brilliant full moon on high,
The sky was beautiful the night you died,
The stars were sparkling, the air was clear,
But in a moment you were no longer here.
Lovingly held, you were flown away,
It was not meant for you to stay,
I don’t know the why of this,
But know you dwell in Heavenly bliss.
The world is no longer the one I knew,
I always thought I’d be with you,
I pray for help to carry on,
For my heart is broken with you now gone.
You slipped from this world sight unseen,
Lifted on silent angel wings,
Soaring in glorious celestial flight,
Through the darkness of the night.
Past a brilliant full moon on high,
The sky was beautiful the night you died,
The stars were sparkling, the air was clear,
But in a moment you were no longer here.
Lovingly held, you were flown away,
It was not meant for you to stay,
I don’t know the why of this,
But know you dwell in Heavenly bliss.
The world is no longer the one I knew,
I always thought I’d be with you,
I pray for help to carry on,
For my heart is broken with you now gone.
Wednesday, October 19, 2011
Rainbow
Just over a month ago I saw an amazing "rainbow bridge" in the sky from my backyard. Last week I saw this rainbow from my parents backyard when I was visiting. Yesterday I was watching "Dancing With the Stars" on TV. The Band Perry performed their hit song, "If I Die Young." This is a verse from that song:
"Lord make me a rainbow, I'll shine down on my mother,
She'll know I'm safe with you when she stands under my colors..."
I am grateful for these rainbow messages!
"Lord make me a rainbow, I'll shine down on my mother,
She'll know I'm safe with you when she stands under my colors..."
I am grateful for these rainbow messages!
Tuesday, October 18, 2011
Sunday, October 16, 2011
Angels Across the USA Event in Northern Virginia
The Bereaved Parents of the USA Northern Virginia Chapter hosted The Angels Across the USA workshop and concert yesterday in Lorton. It was held at the beautiful and historic Pohick church. This was an intimate setting with lovely people all connected by hearts that have suffered great loss. It was a wonderful healing event and a video was made that will allow Alan and Denise to bring their grief ministry to groups across the country that they would be unable to reach in person.
Friday, October 14, 2011
Memorial Vase
I found this memorial vase on line. I have it and think that it is very special. I am sharing the web site for any one who might also be interested in having a memorial vase. http://www.terrysvillage.com/memorial-vase-a2-91_5822.fltr?prodCatId=163832&tabId=1
Thursday, October 6, 2011
Angelic Vision
I posted this same picture with my Rainbow Bridge poem last month, shortly after it was taken. After contemplating the significance of this beautiful message in the sky I wrote another poem. Here is my latest poem with the angel clouds picture again.
A rainbow’s promise and angelic love,
Shown to me in the sky above,
I gazed in wonder at the clouds of white,
Amazed to see this glorious sight.
Two angel shaped clouds with a rainbow in between,
A bridge of colors to be seen,
Rays of aqua, violet, and blue,
So lovely and luminous to view.
Was this a heavenly message for me,
A promise of things yet to be?
I long to cross this rainbow bridge,
To understand the life I live.
Loving angels are guiding my way,
I am listening to hear what they say,
Love is the beacon, the heart connection,
That shines the light on new direction.
Shown to me in the sky above,
I gazed in wonder at the clouds of white,
Amazed to see this glorious sight.
Two angel shaped clouds with a rainbow in between,
A bridge of colors to be seen,
Rays of aqua, violet, and blue,
So lovely and luminous to view.
Was this a heavenly message for me,
A promise of things yet to be?
I long to cross this rainbow bridge,
To understand the life I live.
Loving angels are guiding my way,
I am listening to hear what they say,
Love is the beacon, the heart connection,
That shines the light on new direction.
Saturday, October 1, 2011
Bereaved Parents of the USA newsletter
The Bereaved Parents of the USA has a free national quarterly newsletter that's distributed by email and is also available online. This is another helpful resource for the grieving. My "Doves of Hope" poem that I wrote after the dove release at the national conference is in the latest issue. Here's the link to subscribe or to read online: http://www.bereavedparentsusa.org/BP_NatlNews.htm
Monday, September 26, 2011
Angel of Light
I just wrote a poem for this beautiful angel tapestry we bought a couple of months ago. I love looking at the tapestry and thinking about the message it conveys.
A lovely angel of heavenly light,
Is on our tapestry to view in delight,
She has golden wings and a golden crown,
Dressed in a white flowing gown.
Beside the angel are seven sweet doves,
Attracted by her angelic love,
In one hand she holds a candlestick,
Light emanating from its wick.
She appears to beckon, as if to say,
Come with me, I’ll guide your way,
Up the steps and through the arched door,
Come with me, there is so much more.
I enjoy having this tapestry to see,
A beautiful image of promise to be,
No hint of shadows or darkness is there,
Only light and love and heavenly care.
Is on our tapestry to view in delight,
She has golden wings and a golden crown,
Dressed in a white flowing gown.
Beside the angel are seven sweet doves,
Attracted by her angelic love,
In one hand she holds a candlestick,
Light emanating from its wick.
She appears to beckon, as if to say,
Come with me, I’ll guide your way,
Up the steps and through the arched door,
Come with me, there is so much more.
I enjoy having this tapestry to see,
A beautiful image of promise to be,
No hint of shadows or darkness is there,
Only light and love and heavenly care.
Friday, September 23, 2011
Windows to the Soul
Mesmerizing sky blue eyes,
Ageless, deep, and very wise,
My young son, but an old soul,
Who was here briefly to love and know.
Eyes are the windows to the soul they say,
Reflections of inner realms at play,
I understand this now much more,
Than I ever did before.
Why did you have to leave,
For me to remember and to grieve?
What mysteries can you now share,
With your knowledge from over there?
You opened my heart like a flower in full bloom,
But you left far too soon,
My heart grieves and mourns your passing,
But our love is everlasting.
Love transcends space and time,
Written as an eternal rhyme,
I am grateful and very blessed,
For the time you were here with us.
Ageless, deep, and very wise,
My young son, but an old soul,
Who was here briefly to love and know.
Eyes are the windows to the soul they say,
Reflections of inner realms at play,
I understand this now much more,
Than I ever did before.
Why did you have to leave,
For me to remember and to grieve?
What mysteries can you now share,
With your knowledge from over there?
You opened my heart like a flower in full bloom,
But you left far too soon,
My heart grieves and mourns your passing,
But our love is everlasting.
Love transcends space and time,
Written as an eternal rhyme,
I am grateful and very blessed,
For the time you were here with us.
Tuesday, September 20, 2011
Four Years
A few days ago my husband and I went to the Quantico National Cemetery where Graham is buried. We placed these flowers on his grave. In two more days it will be 4 years since he died. It is a very difficult week. I miss my son more than I could ever say.
I am at the cemetery today,
Placing flowers upon your grave,
It’s been four years now since you passed,
Four years ago when I saw you last.
I long to see you once again,
I miss you son, my heart, my friend,
The tears are running down my cheeks,
I feel emotionally drained and weak.
Your gravesite is not where I ever thought to be,
With only your name and dates to see,
Marking the anniversary of the day you died,
And another year that I have cried.
Placing flowers upon your grave,
It’s been four years now since you passed,
Four years ago when I saw you last.
I long to see you once again,
I miss you son, my heart, my friend,
The tears are running down my cheeks,
I feel emotionally drained and weak.
Your gravesite is not where I ever thought to be,
With only your name and dates to see,
Marking the anniversary of the day you died,
And another year that I have cried.
Saturday, September 17, 2011
Angels Across the USA newsletter
This month Angels Across the USA has issued their first of what will be a monthly newsletter. Angels Across the USA is a bereavement ministry of Alan and Denise Pedersen. The newsletter is filled with information to educate and inspire all who are working their way through grief. I was honored to have one of my poems in this first newsletter. Here is the link if you would like to learn more about Angels Across the USA and to sign up for the free newsletter.
http://www.angelsacrosstheusa.com/
http://www.angelsacrosstheusa.com/
Tuesday, September 13, 2011
Little Angel
October is pregnancy and infant loss awareness month. On October 1st a memory walk for the many brief lives lost will be held near where I live. I am pleased to be a part of this special event. I am going to read this poem I wrote for all little angels and their parents, from my mother's heart to theirs. Bless us all.
http://llost.kintera.org/faf/home/default.asp?ievent=488825
http://llost.kintera.org/faf/home/default.asp?ievent=488825
Rock-a-bye sweet baby,
In the angels’ arms,
Lovingly held and sheltered,
Safe from any harms.
I long for my arms to hold you,
There is such an empty place,
I was counting every day,
Until I’d see your little face.
You were growing within me,
With all my love and care,
I was anticipating our life together,
And everything we’d share.
I bought you baby blankets,
Adorable clothes and tiny shoes,
Your room was freshly painted,
All waiting just for you.
We had your name selected,
From within our family tree,
Another generation to cherish,
We were awaiting joyously.
I loved you every moment,
You were nestled beneath my heart,
I’ll remember you forever,
And all the dreams you were a part.
Laugh and play in Heaven,
Nurtured by a divine hand,
Feel my love surround you,
As I struggle to understand.
Thank-you darling angel,
For however brief the time,
That I was blessed to have you,
My precious baby mine.
In the angels’ arms,
Lovingly held and sheltered,
Safe from any harms.
I long for my arms to hold you,
There is such an empty place,
I was counting every day,
Until I’d see your little face.
You were growing within me,
With all my love and care,
I was anticipating our life together,
And everything we’d share.
I bought you baby blankets,
Adorable clothes and tiny shoes,
Your room was freshly painted,
All waiting just for you.
We had your name selected,
From within our family tree,
Another generation to cherish,
We were awaiting joyously.
I loved you every moment,
You were nestled beneath my heart,
I’ll remember you forever,
And all the dreams you were a part.
Laugh and play in Heaven,
Nurtured by a divine hand,
Feel my love surround you,
As I struggle to understand.
Thank-you darling angel,
For however brief the time,
That I was blessed to have you,
My precious baby mine.
Monday, September 5, 2011
Second Annual Afterlife Awareness Conference
The second annual Afterlife Awareness Conference-2012 will be held in Virginia Beach in March. I attended the 2011 conference in Phoenix last year. It was very worthwhile. This second conference promises to be even better. Here is the information if you are interested in attending. There are several different areas of afterlife awareness offered to explore. I am looking forward to this event!
http://www.regonline.com/builder/site/Default.aspx?EventID=975447
http://www.regonline.com/builder/site/Default.aspx?EventID=975447
Wednesday, August 31, 2011
Rainbow Bridge
Today my husband and I were out on our deck. We were so surprised when we happened to look up at the sky and noticed an upside down rainbow between two clouds! We've never seen an upside down rainbow, or a rainbow just between two clouds. It was also unexpected because it hadn't rained. Look at this amazing photograph. I think the clouds look like angels. I believe this is a message validating my Rainbow Bridge poem that I wrote a couple of years ago that is at the beginning of my book!
I’m going to meet you halfway, Graham, come take my hand,
I’m walking steadily toward the Promised Land,
I won’t let you leave me, I’m not far behind,
You are with me always, son of mine.
One foot in Heaven, and one foot on Earth,
I straddle both worlds now, a totally new turf,
Like a rainbow’s promise on a distant ridge,
Let us join together and make a bridge.
I’m walking steadily toward the Promised Land,
I won’t let you leave me, I’m not far behind,
You are with me always, son of mine.
One foot in Heaven, and one foot on Earth,
I straddle both worlds now, a totally new turf,
Like a rainbow’s promise on a distant ridge,
Let us join together and make a bridge.
Wednesday, August 24, 2011
Amazing Communication
I am posting an email, with River's permission, to share the amazing after-death communication that she received from my son! I met River at the Bereaved Parents national conference last month. She was one of the authors and workshop presenters. River has written the most beautiful, profound little book. It is called, "Morgan's List." She wrote it for her 7 year old niece who was dying from cancer. I highly recommend it to everyone. It is also a story of the individual lists that we create to learn from in this lifetime. I cry every time I read it. I was so comforted by this email, and hope that you will be too. I knew as soon as I read it that she had received a message from Graham - he loves to communicate through electricity, letting us all know that he is still here. I love the messages and signs that our loved ones give to let us know they are always with us. Here is her email:
Hi Claire Ann,
Thank you for sending the photo. It came out really nice! And thank you so much for giving me a copy of your book! I read it on the plane ride home. I cried many times in the beauty of it. The poems are beautiful. There is a sweetness and purity to them. Just lovely.
I was sharing the book and the story of your son to friends this weekend that were visiting from out of town. It was late at night, and just when I got to the part about the poems being divinely inspired, and sent from your son, the walkie-talkie that the children had been playing with that afternoon started ringing in the kitchen!!! It rang like it does when the other unit is calling (the other unit was OFF), and then there was lots of static and a broken up voice echoing in my kitchen! My friends were immediately panicked...I got chills and started laughing in delight! Spirit can be in a jillion places at once, so.......perhaps your son goes where your book goes, and he was just saying hello!
Hope things are well with you. Thank you for adding my book to your blog site. It can be ordered through my website http://www.butterflymoonpublishing.com.
Take care.
Love,
River
Hi Claire Ann,
Thank you for sending the photo. It came out really nice! And thank you so much for giving me a copy of your book! I read it on the plane ride home. I cried many times in the beauty of it. The poems are beautiful. There is a sweetness and purity to them. Just lovely.
I was sharing the book and the story of your son to friends this weekend that were visiting from out of town. It was late at night, and just when I got to the part about the poems being divinely inspired, and sent from your son, the walkie-talkie that the children had been playing with that afternoon started ringing in the kitchen!!! It rang like it does when the other unit is calling (the other unit was OFF), and then there was lots of static and a broken up voice echoing in my kitchen! My friends were immediately panicked...I got chills and started laughing in delight! Spirit can be in a jillion places at once, so.......perhaps your son goes where your book goes, and he was just saying hello!
Hope things are well with you. Thank you for adding my book to your blog site. It can be ordered through my website http://www.butterflymoonpublishing.com.
Take care.
Love,
River
Friday, August 19, 2011
In the Garden of What Might Have Been
In the garden of what might have been,
I could get lost in regret and remember whens,
The landscape would remain barren and bleak,
With nothing of color to speak.
That would not celebrate your life while here,
The happiness in every precious year,
Or acknowledge the beauty we were shown,
In the love we were blessed to have known.
I’ve been on my knees in the depths of despair,
But you come to me in my anguished prayers,
Comforting and reassuring me,
That death is not a finality.
I want a garden of wondrous splendor,
With all the love and joy I remember,
Where flowers grow in brilliant profusion,
Showing all that death is an illusion.
Glorious colors as far as the eye can see,
Blooming in magnificent variety,
The air is fragrant with their mingled scents,
Filling my being with all that you meant.
Your garden of love now blooms in my heart,
Nurtured by knowing we are never apart,
I have been opened to new possibility,
By unconditional love and your legacy.
I could get lost in regret and remember whens,
The landscape would remain barren and bleak,
With nothing of color to speak.
That would not celebrate your life while here,
The happiness in every precious year,
Or acknowledge the beauty we were shown,
In the love we were blessed to have known.
I’ve been on my knees in the depths of despair,
But you come to me in my anguished prayers,
Comforting and reassuring me,
That death is not a finality.
I want a garden of wondrous splendor,
With all the love and joy I remember,
Where flowers grow in brilliant profusion,
Showing all that death is an illusion.
Glorious colors as far as the eye can see,
Blooming in magnificent variety,
The air is fragrant with their mingled scents,
Filling my being with all that you meant.
Your garden of love now blooms in my heart,
Nurtured by knowing we are never apart,
I have been opened to new possibility,
By unconditional love and your legacy.
Sunday, August 14, 2011
Claire Ann
I want to share this amazingly beautiful poem that my dear friend, Vivian West, wrote for me. I met Vivian five years ago. She lost a treasured daughter, Kathy, several years prior to my meeting her. Unbelievably, a year and a half later my precious son, Graham, died. Our friendship has gone to a whole different level with the shared anguish of losing a beloved child. What a blessing she is to me. I don't believe that it is a coincidence that we are in each others lives. The lovely rose with this poem was painted by a special friend of Vivian's, Anne Higgins. I treasure this poem and our friendship.
Wednesday, August 10, 2011
Blog Talk Radio interview
Hi Everyone! I will be on The Ron Villano Radio Show Monday August 22nd at 10am!! I will be discussing my journey as a grieving parent, and my book, "A Mother's Tears-Poems of Heartbreak, Loss, and Discovery."
Please listen in at www.BlogTalkRadio.com/RonVilla no or you can call in to the show at 1-646-929-0649.
The show will be archived so you will be able to listen to it at any time.
Sunday, August 7, 2011
Still Here
I am enjoying fresh flowers in my home today,
Lovingly placed in a vase to display,
Beside the candle I lit for you,
With your picture and my poem on it too.
The poem is entitled “Heartsong,”
Describing how you will always belong,
Life is not about letting loved ones go,
We honor and remember in ways we can show.
I played some music and in thought held you near,
Feeling your presence because you’re still here,
Love is the power that gives life over death,
Our hearts know this with every breath.
Rest in peace beloved one,
You shine as brightly as the sun,
Lighting a trail for all to see,
Along the path of eternity.
Lovingly placed in a vase to display,
Beside the candle I lit for you,
With your picture and my poem on it too.
The poem is entitled “Heartsong,”
Describing how you will always belong,
Life is not about letting loved ones go,
We honor and remember in ways we can show.
I played some music and in thought held you near,
Feeling your presence because you’re still here,
Love is the power that gives life over death,
Our hearts know this with every breath.
Rest in peace beloved one,
You shine as brightly as the sun,
Lighting a trail for all to see,
Along the path of eternity.
Thursday, August 4, 2011
Doves of Hope
The Bereaved Parents USA National Gathering was this past weekend in Reston,Virginia. The last morning we followed a bagpiper outdoors for a dove release. It was beautiful to see the doves in flight. I was thinking about what doves represent and wrote this poem. My husband took this picture at the dove release.
A dule of lovely snow white doves,
Soaring in the sky above,
Released in honor of our daughters and sons,
Who now reside in Heaven.
Messengers of joy, love, and peace,
Help us find the comfort we seek,
Symbols of triumph of life over death,
A hope we believe until our last breath.
As we watch the doves in flight,
Although tears may blur our sight,
We send our love and gratitude,
To our children beyond a sky of blue.
Fly doves, above the clouds on high,
Our love for our children will never die,
We celebrate their love and life,
Until the day we reunite.
Soaring in the sky above,
Released in honor of our daughters and sons,
Who now reside in Heaven.
Messengers of joy, love, and peace,
Help us find the comfort we seek,
Symbols of triumph of life over death,
A hope we believe until our last breath.
As we watch the doves in flight,
Although tears may blur our sight,
We send our love and gratitude,
To our children beyond a sky of blue.
Fly doves, above the clouds on high,
Our love for our children will never die,
We celebrate their love and life,
Until the day we reunite.
Saturday, July 23, 2011
"Angel of Light" tapestry
We just bought this beautiful angel tapestry. It's called "Angel of Light." We hung it up today and took this picture of it. When we looked at the picture on our computer we saw a small orb in it! The orb is toward the bottom of the picture above the ottoman. I love when we are shown that our Heavenly helpers are always with us!
Sunday, July 17, 2011
Monumental Journey of the Heart
The theme for the Bereaved Parents of the USA National Gathering this year is "a monumental journey of the heart." We are decorating hearts to display in the memorial area of the conference for our children. This is the heart my husband and I did for Graham. The verse at the bottom is from one of my poems. Graham, our bright and shining star. We love you now and forever.
Tuesday, July 12, 2011
Calling All Angels
Train - Calling All Angels Video I had so many signs today. One of them was finding a feather right in front of me as I was walking in a parking lot. When I was driving home this song came on the radio! Thank you angels...
Saturday, July 9, 2011
Bereaved Parents National Gathering
This is the memorial page that we've done for Graham that will be in the program for the Bereaved Parents of the USA national gathering. It will be held in Reston, VA the end of this month. It's not too late to register if you would like to attend. http://www.bereavedparentsusa. org/Gathering.html Come for a weekend of sharing and caring. A place where no words need to be said, for all share your broken heart and understand. Find comfort and support in healing workshops and inspirational speakers. The conference will end with a dove release on Sunday.
Tuesday, July 5, 2011
Beyond the Veil
How wonderful it must be,
To return to pure energy,
Unencumbered, happy and free,
Having shed the earthly body.
No more physical aches or pains,
Heartache, resentments or emotional strains,
Only love and joy prevail,
When we move beyond the veil.
Reconnected to our source and shown,
All the answers we longed to have known,
Beyond the ego and multi-dimensional,
Able to see our greatest potential.
While in the body here on earth,
Experiencing the years from our birth,
It’s hard to see past the illusion and live,
With the greater wisdom that is God’s to give.
Open my heart and my mind,
So while I’m here I may find,
Strength from Spirit to understand,
My soul’s purpose and divine plan.
To return to pure energy,
Unencumbered, happy and free,
Having shed the earthly body.
No more physical aches or pains,
Heartache, resentments or emotional strains,
Only love and joy prevail,
When we move beyond the veil.
Reconnected to our source and shown,
All the answers we longed to have known,
Beyond the ego and multi-dimensional,
Able to see our greatest potential.
While in the body here on earth,
Experiencing the years from our birth,
It’s hard to see past the illusion and live,
With the greater wisdom that is God’s to give.
Open my heart and my mind,
So while I’m here I may find,
Strength from Spirit to understand,
My soul’s purpose and divine plan.
Sunday, June 26, 2011
Into the Light
Life has many mysteries I long to have revealed,
Teachings and truths that seem concealed,
Traveling through time we gradually see,
What we thought was hidden has been waiting to be freed.
It’s our vision that changes,
When perception rearranges,
For when we start to awaken,
Old thoughts and views are shaken.
Mysteries suddenly become more clear,
When we listen with a divine ear,
We learn the greatest teaching hides in plain sight,
Love is what brings us all to the Light.
Teachings and truths that seem concealed,
Traveling through time we gradually see,
What we thought was hidden has been waiting to be freed.
It’s our vision that changes,
When perception rearranges,
For when we start to awaken,
Old thoughts and views are shaken.
Mysteries suddenly become more clear,
When we listen with a divine ear,
We learn the greatest teaching hides in plain sight,
Love is what brings us all to the Light.
Sunday, June 19, 2011
Happy Father's Day
This is a picture I took of my husband with our children in the summer of 2006. Graham only had one more Father's Day with us after this picture. We miss you, Graham, every day. Thank you for making Father's Days so special. We love you.
Friday, June 10, 2011
Butterflies and Dragonflies basket
I have been collecting items with butterflies and dragonflies on them for a themed basket. The basket is for the silent auction/raffle that will be held at the Bereaved Parents of the USA national conference next month in Reston - http://www.bereavedparentsusa. org/Gathering.html. A dear and talented friend artistically arranged the items in the basket and beautifully wrapped it. Here is a picture of the basket.
Friday, June 3, 2011
Searching for You
Lord, hear my heartfelt soul's lament,
I fear my tears will never be spent,
Aching, soul-deep despair and sorrow,
It’s so hard to care about tomorrow.
True agony of the soul,
What now will be my goal?
No longer will there be,
The plans and dreams I hoped to see.
I still look for you each day,
How could you have passed away?
I look for you in the house and yard,
Nothing I could imagine would be this hard.
Without the sense that you are here,
Only in a different sphere,
The pain would be much too deep,
For my soul to ever keep.
Stay always by my side,
A loving, helpful spirit guide,
And when my time here has passed,
Together we will be at last.
I fear my tears will never be spent,
Aching, soul-deep despair and sorrow,
It’s so hard to care about tomorrow.
True agony of the soul,
What now will be my goal?
No longer will there be,
The plans and dreams I hoped to see.
I still look for you each day,
How could you have passed away?
I look for you in the house and yard,
Nothing I could imagine would be this hard.
Without the sense that you are here,
Only in a different sphere,
The pain would be much too deep,
For my soul to ever keep.
Stay always by my side,
A loving, helpful spirit guide,
And when my time here has passed,
Together we will be at last.
Saturday, May 28, 2011
Unsatisfying Phrases
“He's in a better place,”
As if that can erase,
The loss of a loved one's sweet embrace,
Or the sight of that precious face.
“We can't know,”
Goes to show,
How little these phrases satisfy,
We do want to know, why?
Consciousness risen,
Answers be given,
To the journey of a soul,
This is my goal.
With an open heart and an open mind,
I pray that I may find,
What was lost,
At the greatest cost.
To be able to release,
And to find the peace,
The comfort, the surety,
That all is as it's meant to be.
As if that can erase,
The loss of a loved one's sweet embrace,
Or the sight of that precious face.
“We can't know,”
Goes to show,
How little these phrases satisfy,
We do want to know, why?
Consciousness risen,
Answers be given,
To the journey of a soul,
This is my goal.
With an open heart and an open mind,
I pray that I may find,
What was lost,
At the greatest cost.
To be able to release,
And to find the peace,
The comfort, the surety,
That all is as it's meant to be.
Monday, May 23, 2011
Always
This picture of Graham, me, and his grandmother (my mother) was taken at VCU's Spring Exhibition for the graphic arts majors. Graham had several posters on display.
If home is where your heart is,
Then my home is far away,
Because my heart went with you,
The day you passed away.
In the kingdom of Heaven,
Is where my heart now resides,
Because it beats with yours forever,
With all the love I hold inside.
No one could love you more than I do,
Remember, I used to tell you so,
There is no stronger bond of love,
Than a mother and child can know.
I miss you here beside me,
The calls we made each day,
I would give anything,
To hear what you have to say.
Your funny observations,
Your serious, probing thoughts,
Your clever witticisms,
All are missed a lot.
The joy of seeing you marry,
To have children of your own,
Are no longer possible,
For you have gone back home.
I mourn your crossing over,
That it was your earthly time to die,
I know you are happy in Heaven,
But I still can’t help but cry.
You are flying freely now,
There is nothing to weigh you down,
In many ways you show me,
That you are still around.
I loved being your mother,
Thank you for being my son,
You are with me always,
Forever we are as one.
Then my home is far away,
Because my heart went with you,
The day you passed away.
In the kingdom of Heaven,
Is where my heart now resides,
Because it beats with yours forever,
With all the love I hold inside.
No one could love you more than I do,
Remember, I used to tell you so,
There is no stronger bond of love,
Than a mother and child can know.
I miss you here beside me,
The calls we made each day,
I would give anything,
To hear what you have to say.
Your funny observations,
Your serious, probing thoughts,
Your clever witticisms,
All are missed a lot.
The joy of seeing you marry,
To have children of your own,
Are no longer possible,
For you have gone back home.
I mourn your crossing over,
That it was your earthly time to die,
I know you are happy in Heaven,
But I still can’t help but cry.
You are flying freely now,
There is nothing to weigh you down,
In many ways you show me,
That you are still around.
I loved being your mother,
Thank you for being my son,
You are with me always,
Forever we are as one.
Friday, May 13, 2011
The Bigger Picture
If I live the average number of years,
Calculated while I am here,
I am already two-thirds through,
With what I came here to do.
It gives one pause upon reflection,
Because there’s so much to question,
Has the life you’ve lived so far,
Positively defined who you are?
Have you fulfilled your hopes and dreams?
Are you happy with what you’ve done and seen?
Have you tried your very best,
So in contentment you may rest?
We must pray for God’s love and light,
To help us to keep shining bright,
It’s easy to become disillusioned,
And to live in a state of confusion.
When life doesn’t go as you planned,
It’s so hard to understand,
You realize there’s so much we don’t know,
And that we really have little control.
The picture is much bigger than we can see,
In the plan of eternity,
There is no timeframe for a soul,
Only one consistent goal.
That is to experience, learn and grow,
So that we eventually come to know,
The sacred breath of life,
That unites us all in Heaven’s light.
Calculated while I am here,
I am already two-thirds through,
With what I came here to do.
It gives one pause upon reflection,
Because there’s so much to question,
Has the life you’ve lived so far,
Positively defined who you are?
Have you fulfilled your hopes and dreams?
Are you happy with what you’ve done and seen?
Have you tried your very best,
So in contentment you may rest?
We must pray for God’s love and light,
To help us to keep shining bright,
It’s easy to become disillusioned,
And to live in a state of confusion.
When life doesn’t go as you planned,
It’s so hard to understand,
You realize there’s so much we don’t know,
And that we really have little control.
The picture is much bigger than we can see,
In the plan of eternity,
There is no timeframe for a soul,
Only one consistent goal.
That is to experience, learn and grow,
So that we eventually come to know,
The sacred breath of life,
That unites us all in Heaven’s light.
Sunday, May 8, 2011
Mother's Day 2011
I'm blessed to be able to share this Mother's Day weekend with my mother and dad.
Count your blessings large and small,
Be thankful for them all,
A beautiful day, a note from a friend,
Your pet’s happy greeting, the list never ends.
The love of your family, a baby’s smile,
So many things make life worthwhile,
When at night you go to bed,
Make a list inside your head.
What did your day bring?
Think of any positive thing,
Let the shadows move and pass,
Dark clouds do not always last.
Look for the sun, for it will rise,
Let no negative visions obscure the eyes,
Ask for any Heavenly help,
To move beyond thoughts of self.
Cherish every happy memory and know,
That we are here to learn and grow,
And that if we walk each day in love,
All our needs will be taken care of.
Be thankful for them all,
A beautiful day, a note from a friend,
Your pet’s happy greeting, the list never ends.
The love of your family, a baby’s smile,
So many things make life worthwhile,
When at night you go to bed,
Make a list inside your head.
What did your day bring?
Think of any positive thing,
Let the shadows move and pass,
Dark clouds do not always last.
Look for the sun, for it will rise,
Let no negative visions obscure the eyes,
Ask for any Heavenly help,
To move beyond thoughts of self.
Cherish every happy memory and know,
That we are here to learn and grow,
And that if we walk each day in love,
All our needs will be taken care of.